I was and am very happy that i called and wished my sister.  Somethings are better left unexplained…!!!

That moment i promised to myself that i will always be supporting her in all happiness and hardships of life…!!!

Sometimes it also thrills to be an emotional person to face the world courageously with added responsibility…!!!

A ray of hope passed through my soul from nowhere to progress through my career in financial terms and as well to attain my other personal aspirations that was haunting my heart and mind, when My company initiated L1 – Blanket visa for a vacant position in US.

But all those doors have been shut when i had stood in front of an US consulate officer in Chennai on July’ 30th 2010. Yes, my VISA was not processed  successfully when she told that “sorry, we are not able to process your visa at this point of time, please contact your company’s HR people for what next step to be taken” and gave me a 221 (g) slip.

Have no idea what … was it my experience or the fee hike or anxiousness ..? but quite a lot of Visas were not getting approved at that time. To add to that even recession played a part.

I had felt that all my dreams and hopes have been dismantled. It is not the desire to go to US and earn money rather it is to build all the possible solutions to achieve my aspirations.

So after a quite few discussions with my leads and managers, again H-1B visa was initiated having faced few hurdles. It would not have been an easy task if i had not told them I’m quitting. Yes i was told that all options are closed since quota for filing is over for our vertical. And it was all the faith and confidence that my manager Srinivas goud had on me has made him to cross over the hurdles to get it done with a little stress and push from my end.

But it ate time like anything almost a year,  i have submitted all the necessary documents in the month of sep’10 and my company has filed the same by oct’10 end. And it took some 3 months for me to get the receipt no: by Jan’11. Finally , on march 9th even my H-1B visa case was not approved from USCIS, the status went on to ‘Request for evidence’ which stated that USCIS would need additional documents to process the same. Yesterday i.e. 14/11/2011, i have forwarded all the requested documents to company’s ODC cell who will be submitting it to USCIS. Now keeping my fingers crossed foreseeing my aspirations…!!!:)

Lets hope for the best…!!!

So wat happened…?

Our relationship started of in Mar’09 when we went to Mumbai for a training and lasted till Jul’09 in Chennai, after which she was taken back to her native by her parents in Aug’09 and to be precise it all extended till feb’10.

Yes, her parents came to know about our relationship before she opens it up through her friend, who thought that she could help by telling and convincing her parents for her. But it took a reverse turn and rest is history.

I was very clear even before getting into relationship that I should not hurt the feelings of any parents in case if i get into love and that I should proceed ahead with their support only.  It’s not cuz of the fear but for all the other personal reasons and also for the fear of losing them.

After her parents came to know, the crying were happening over phone between her and her parents as she was staying in Chennai at that time. I made my mom to speak with her mom but nothing worked out. She told my mom that it will never happen and huge hopes were there on her marriage and that she is the 1st girl in the generation and other cousins were there in the family n blah…

A week after, her dad came to Chennai and saw us both leaving together from office and started shouting at me on facing us. I tried to speak softly & convince him but he was at the peak of his anger that I couldn’t do so. I called my friends for support and they came. We moved to her guest house and in presence of her warden, her dad called me in and spoke again. And here i did the mistake of my life, I should have spoken myself but in between I listened to her words and spoke in a manner that asking them to leave her and go. I was totally not I am when I uttered those words. I know I was making the mistake but jus told her dad, listening to her.

Before all these things happened I clearly explained her dad that im not interested in money or the other leisurely things. He thought and still thinks that i had played some cunning act and made her fall in my trap.

My dad, sister and brother-in-law came later to the place. Myself along with my dad n my sister spoke to her dad again, her dad spoke in a very cheap manner and was complaining on me. Everything came as a barrier state, language, financial status, caste and all the other possible reasons.

After all the drama her dad took her to their native the next day, after she denying and her uncles convincing her. Her mobile was snatched and she was blocked from all the ways from contacting me.

I made my mom, sister, dad and granny cry for my deeds and for me. I made their pride, my family pride go down. I felt very sorry for what ever I did…!!!

It was a complete period of darkness in my life. I was in a mental depression for continuous 3 months and it lasted for some time.

She used to call me whenever it’s possible and ask me to come and take her back in the initial few days, i used to advise her to wait and make her parents convince for the same.  It went on like this for sometime. And at times i used to get threatening calls from her relatives …!!!

And also faced huge hurdles and problems cuz of this at my workplace.I felt very guilty of being a reason for her career having been spoilt. Whenever i used to tell this to her on call, she used to console me that it’s not just my fault and not a thing to be worried.

And as usual here and there some small and huge misunderstandings happened between us over call. In between all these things a good friend of her used to be in touch with me to update on her. Once, it went on to a stage of break up as well cuz i shouted at her!!!

And one fine day (i.e.) just a week before the valentine’s day she gave me a call and told that ” she understands me well and though she tells that she will come outta her place she never meant it cuz she loves her parents a lot and that she will wait till they accept me and will never marry anyone “. I was so happy that she was so very confident and i was flying high.

But after some 2 weeks, i got a call from her friend saying that she got convinced and made a promise to her parents that she will try to forget me and will not do anything against her parents’ wish.

Most of the times she never understands the fact that she is the one who needs to convince her parents.

I have sent mails couple of time after that but just received that last mail on June 25th.

In all these very crucial and tough periods of my life, my dad, mom,sister and ma close friends supported me and guided me to get outta this.

Sometimes it makes me to doubt whether is this the real love or mere lust, im not complaining though or is it just the fear…!!! Mistakes were there on my part as well…!!!  So much of confusions and frustrations.

But finally it had taught me a huge lesson in the ocean called love and has just added oil to the already burning fire to progress through life in all aspects in much more rapid phase.

I should have written this post long ago but time and mood took this much long period.

Trizetto is an US based healthcare insurance company which has product by name FACETS.

I should admit that after my training period in Syntel this was one place where i enjoyed a lot and gained some really good relationships.

I wouldn’t say that i had learnt a lot practically in this project but gained lots of theoretical knowledge on many concepts. Thanks to the mentors Daniel and Suman.  And of all learned a lot about the people.  I really got some good friends here. Elango and  Daniel are the 2 team leads with whom im very close to.  Sasi, Satya, Richard, Suraj, Raghupathi, Ashok and Philo are the friends with whom i eventually became very close to. Srini was the project manager and he has a good opinion on me as a smart guy and also on the other end he teases me quite well…

Daniel always used to compare my mannerisms and behavior with elango and used to call me as Elango part II which, even i liked it…

Elango is one good person and a friend of mine who used to advise me in all aspects including my personal life. He was one person in the project who knows me more than others…!!!
The one team which i miss a lot and with whom i always wanted to work along…!!!

Mumbai Travel:

First it all started with the official travel for one month from March 21st to April 20th to Mumbai regarding project training… And yeah finally into the project from Feb 23rd onwards and on a business travel… It was a hectic schedule and was going tough… Got some really good friends in the project hoping to build a strong bond… We all were provided with a top class accommodation from our company and it was all really good and enjoyed the posh life for the shorter period… We are totally 5 from Chennai and during the free weekends that we had we went to Shridi baba’s temple, A movie (Ayan ) in the Hub, Juhu beach, Gateway of India and Fashion street. It was all fun and missing Mumbai except for the Parents, friends and food… And food yeah for the people from South to North its really a big headache … After all these things, to the worst part I’m the only guy in the team went from Chennai… Lots of misunderstandings within the team members and lotsa dramas and it was all the teachings of life and about the people… At the end of the training, the exam was conducted and i was one among the 7 members who cleared at the first go…  Everything that happens in our life has a purpose and this travel too had taught me many things and finally helped me to realize my love… And yes she and myself we both being together from the first day of our corporate career realized our interest to each other at this very place… memorable moments in life… and again some dramas happen after that… Finally the day 18th April  came for the return and we are in Chennai on 20th April and busy with the Project. The machine life has started and dominating the life letting us have only few hours to spend with the parents and friends. The Hope, Confidence n Courage everything seemed to have been pumped up and heading towards the search of the successful path…!!!

Nature is Ultimate…!!!